The Dying Art of the Photo Chest...

If you caught my TikTok/Insta Reel/YouTube outpouring last week (I KNOW you won't have missed it) you'll remember I've broken up for Christmas. Hurrah! This means, I've put the first draft of book 5/Leeza MacAuliffe book 3 to one side and am forgetting it for a bit. Whoppeee! Apart from being free to fully embrace the season, it means I'll be all the more creative and energised when I pick it back up in January. But I've not downed tools completely. Nope, I've got this blog, silly. Aren't you, and indeed the world at large, the absolute luckiest?!

Home to weights and toiletries, 
it's the PHOTO CHEST.

Usually around now, I start to look for a childhood photo of me - from a Christmas of yesteryear. I use it as the focal point of a post about this time of year, and I publish it the Monday before Christmas. It's a nice one to write; seasonal, meaningful, yet relatively quick. I can get it done in half an hour, then get back to whatever's next on my To Do list. That's my job for today. The thing is, when I look through the folder on my desktop labelled Old Photos, it seems I've previously used every single childhood festive snap. I've only got about six to begin with, and as I've been writing this blog since 2017, I'm not sure how I've managed to eke them out this long. So what happens now? Well, I'm going to have to eschew my digital records and - brace yourselves - venture into my photo chest! This is a wooden box at the end of my bed, that holds every physical photo I've ever taken. As my camera-owning days ran from the age of sixteen to thirty five, there's a finite number of photos from that distinct window. Imagine if I were of a generation that didn't have a smart phone in my pocket. The photo chests would take over the house! No matter. That's my job for this afternoon. Open the box, find a suitable photo, and write a festive blog for your reading pleasure. Wish me luck.

Writing News

I heard the best thing this week. A child I know of, is getting a diary for Christmas... so she can 'be like Leeza'. My fictional protagonist, Leeza McAuliffe, whose diary spans two whole books (available now for stocking filler fun!) is influencing young minds up and down the country. And you know what? I couldn't be more chuffed. I got proper chills and thrills when I heard. Look, diary writing as a youth is SO useful. It's a gift to your older self. You're finding your voice, learning your ethics, solving your problems and having the space and privacy to make mistakes and work out life. A diary is the route to finding yourself. It's the way of moving from being told what to think by the adults in your life, to discovering it for yourself.* So if Leeza and her antics have encouraged just one person (who may or may not know they're getting a diary at this point) to develop their inner world in order to live their outer life, then I am SO chuffed about it. It's not so much writing news but it made me happy and it's book related. It'll do.

How is this 40 years ago?

Culture

Because of where I spent the past week (see Out and About for details) I rewatched Netflix's A Castle For Christmas. It's not the greatest movie but it was filmed near my recent break so I cracked on, awash with vibes. In more music-focused Culture news, I watched the BBC doc, Band Aid: Do They Know It's Christmas. The song is forty years old this year. And whilst it gets understandable criticism these days, this documentary - showing the stars of the day, awkwardly chatting, nervously singing in front of each other, and wondering if it would all come together in the end - is charming. Plus, the 80s pop nostalgia for those that love it, is unbeatable. 

My version of local delicacy,
Cottoms hotpot. FIT AS.

Food and Drink

One more week of healthyish eating and drinking. I say heathyish, but what I mean is, 'not crazy.' I'm keeping the cheese, the party food, and the puddings at bay, and trying to eat balanced meals for as long as possible. This weekend I made fish pie, cullen skink, and hotpot.** Warming, hearty, but each one with a decent amount of veg to keep me feeling virtuous.

North Berwick, forever in my heart.

Out and About

Ah, guys. I was in Scotland! Obvs you know that if you follow me on Insta - my timeline was riddled with it! But the mid-December week in North Berwick has become an essential part of my year. It keeps me sane when everything around me is not. This year, there was an added bonus. I tend to have a pint in the local pub - shoutout to The Ship - each night I'm there. When you're that close to a cosy boozer, why would you not? Last Monday, there was live music. Not only that, it was the North Berwick Songwriter's group, showcasing their Christmas songs. What started as a quick pint after tea, turned into a gorgeously festive, community-filled evening, jam-packed with musical loveliness. I bought the CD and ev. The night has become one of my top holiday memories and yet I just stumbled across it. Mad, innit?

I'll leave you now, to your days. I've got to venture into the photo chest, remember? I may be some time. There's always the chance, of course, that there'll be NO festive photos in there. And then what'll I do? I guess you'll find out this time next week. I'll be back, with, or without a photo. Until then!

Have a lovely week, folks.

*Caitlin Moran has more on the power of youthful diary writing, here (2.16 - 4.12)

**Cottoms hotpot is a regional delicacy - all over the place where I live, not so much elsewhere. No matter, my version pictured above tasted EXACTLY like the real thing and I couldn't have been happier.

Real Deal Nostalgia Over Forced Feelings Any day...

You can't manufacture nostalgia.* It pops up naturally or it's not there at all. Not in any real way. Attempts to force fond feelings of yesteryear can only ever ring hollow no matter how much we want them to emotionally nourish us. 

How do I know this? Because the other day I found myself buying Twiglets. The reason? Because IT'S CHRISTMAS. The problem? Twiglets were never a Bond family staple, in December or any time of year. I've tasted them about ten times in my life whilst visiting other people's houses. I like them. Hurrah! But I'm pretty sure I've never bought them before. So why now? Don't be silly. You know why. Because IT'S CHRISTMAS! For some reason we spend ages attempting to create nostalgia about a time we may never have experienced for real. It's why I like snowy winter scenes despite experiencing a white Christmas maybe once or twice in forty-six years. It's why I'll watch the entire series of Fanny Craddock Cooks For Christmas even though it was broadcast three whole years before I was born. It's all about the image, the manufactured vibes, the LOOK of the thing. Whether it's filled with the joys of nostalgic warmth is highly debatable.

Except... except.. except sometimes it's real. A few years ago, at this time of year, I was walking through Borough Market. It was late-aftenoon, getting dark, and the crowds were dwindling. To one side of the market was a kids' choir. A local school were fundraising; carolling away for the benefit of us all. As I walked past, they began a new carol. Not one of the cosy classics you'd get on a compilation CD or hear on TV. None of your Ding Dong Merrily on Highs, or Away in a Mangers. This one was proper old school; I'd never before heard it in the wild. The Angel Gabriel From Heaven Came. You know it? It's churchy, riddled with organs and incense, and sent me straight back to primary school. The thing is, pre-national curriculum, a lot of my school day seemed to be spent practising carols. The rest of the year that was repackaged as hymn practice.** Either way, that afternoon in Borough Market, I was right back in 3rd year juniors, circa 1987. The smell of the hall polish, the sounds of the dinner ladies behind the shutters, and the sight of the music teacher - often inexplicably in a neck brace - exhorting us to shape our mouths to her specific instruction. That's your nostalgia, right there. It stopped me in my tracks. Literally. I stood and listened and felt huge swathes of empathy for the school kids. I had been them. I was them. It was 1987 all over again. So yeah, Twiglets? A perfectly acceptable shopping item. But let's not pretend they're anything other than a tasty, salty, snack.

My Insta story
from the week. All
the links you need are
in the paragraph.

Writing News

Struggling for stocking fillers, presents, or excellent reads for cosy winter nights? Excellent! Look no further. Leeza McAuliffe Has Something To Say and Leeza McAuliffe Has Loads More To Say are available now. For the old child, young teen, or adult who enjoys reliving their youth. Or, if you know a grown-up who enjoys a contemporary look at adults attempting to adult, here's Carry the Beautiful and Assembling the Wingpeople. You could do far worse, let me assure you.

Ralph Feinnes
is excellent in Conclave.

Culture

There's been a burst of spy shows recently. Are we calling it the Slow Horses effect? No? OK then. The Day of the Jackal's last episode will drop on Thursday. It's been a blast. Then there's a new show on Netflix, whose trailer has similar vibes. Black Doves is top of my watch list, not least because it stars Sarah Lancashire. That's a quality assurance stamp, right there. Amidst all the spy stuff, I've also found myself diving into another genre. The genre of papal intrigue at the vatican! The Robert Harris book, Conclave has been adapted into a film called - well it's obvious really - Conclave. It seems to have got a limited release round my way. No matter, it was proper gripping and I've seen it twice. Clearly not pope-satiated, I remembered the excellent Netflix film, The Two Popes, starring Jonathan Pryce and Anthony Hopkins. It depicts the imagined relationship between Popes Benedict and Francis over the years between their elections. Well worth your time.

Not the prettiest
 but it tasted beautiful.

Food and Drink

You mean apart from Twiglets? There have been other festive-inspired purchases as well. Asda do chocolate orange dusted almonds which, to my mind, is the only way to eat a nut. I've also got myself into Chai. Usually I've made my own with a pan of milky tea and a bunch of spices. This year I thought, naaah and bought the instant version. Happily, it's good! Finally, in Food and Drink news, I made a leek tart (I had a bunch of leeks to use up) and it was fit.

Out and About

There was a family meal for my mum's birthday. Fourteen of us in my local pub, then back to mine for drinks and cake. Then there was a friend's dinner party, (I can't say dinner party without feeling incredibly grown up and of a higher class than my gut-identity) and finally, I got into my car yesterday, drove for a few hours, and began a pre-Christmas jaunt. More of that next week. Until then...

...have a lovely week, folks.

*When the fun stops and fake nostalgia goes too far.

** I had a colleague whose kids were at a Catholic primary school. She once said in the staffroom, 'They can't read or write but they know how to sing.' It tracked.

A Very Selfish Christmas Tree...

It was while I was putting up my Christmas decs that I had the thought. Or, to be specific, it was while I was lovingly adorning my Christmas tree that it hit.

Everyone must have their own system. Their own system for collecting Christmas baubles and trinkets. That's not the thought I had, by the way. We'll get to that in a bit. But it's useful to provide context. So, Christmas bauble collection methods? My sister, for example, has a tradition with her family. They have a yearly garden centre visit, where each person chooses a  new decoration. It's meaningful, eclectic, and at times when her kids were younger, totally batshit. But her tree is a true family project, collated over time. In similar-but- not-really vibes, my brother and his partner buy a tree decoration every time they go on holiday. As frequent travellers, that means they've also ended up with a meaningful, eclectic tree. Good, right?

 

My own system is equally eclectic but less to do with a planned vision. My bauble box was retrieved from the loft last weekend, the contents of which are now scattered on my tree's branches. Apart from what remains of the initial twelve red and silver spherical baubles I bought in 1997 for my first adult home, every other decoration has been bought for me. 

OK, that's not true. They've been bought, or they've been given to me as gift tags, blingy bows on presents, or in one instance, as the tartan-bowed instructions of a porridge recipe that was wrapped around a spurtle I once purchased in Scotland. The point is, I've not given tree decs a second's thought since 1997. They've just turned up over the years. I love that. It makes revisiting them each winter particularly lovely. Every year I'm reminded of old friends, ex-colleagues, and a child or two that I taught once. The result is, I have my own eclectic and meaningful tree. Cool, right?

But back to that thought that I had last weekend. It's to do with a theme that's emerged from my gifted baubles. Let's look at the evidence. There's the sparkly oversized N that I hung near the top. And the small purple bauble with NICKY written across it in gold. Or there's the chalkboard disc with N.B slap bang in the centre. And then there's the silver cutout of an italicised NICKY in the middle of a bauble-shape. Finally, my fave is the illustration on perspex of NICKY - wearing her jeans, jumper, and glasses, sitting amidst a pile of books. That was a gift last year and I love it. But when it's added to the rest on my tree - a tree I share with another person who's not called Nicky - it does seem a tad self-centred. So back to that thought that keeps popping into my mind. Taking in all the evidence that my tree presents, does this make me...  a narcissist? Or at the very least, am I perceived to be a narcissist by anyone that's met me?

Narcissist. It's a word that gets bandied about all over the place these days. That's not helped by the fact we have some horrific public figures in the world that seem to fit our collective understanding of the term. But as someone that has an actual qualification in Psychology and baulks at diagnosing people from afar, it's probably best to be accurate. So let's head to Wikipedia!  - a resource sadly not available during my own psychological studies.

'Narcissism is a self-centred personality style characterised as having an excessive preoccupation with ones self and ones needs, often at the expense of others.'

Well then. That's settled, isn't it. Or is it? Can we really take the opening sentence of Wikipedia, along with a potentially one-note set of decorations as the basis for self-diagnosis of a personality disorder? I'm thinking... no. But as I said, the word is attributed to all sort of public figures (well, one main one) which may or may not be accurate. As such it's become a term used much more in every day discourse.

 

The journalists, Dorian Lynskey and Ian Dunt have a podcast called Origin Story. In it, they take a word or phrase that's become widely misused, dig deep into the research and reading, and find evidence to explain the real meaning. It's a brilliant listen. They've deep-dived into terms such as, Gaslighting, Fascism, and Woke, breaking down the misconceptions built up over time and revealing the truth. I'd LOVE them to do an episode on narcissism. When did it make the leap from psychiatrists' diagnostic manuals into public discourse? What specifically has drawn it into popular culture in recent years? And am I really a narcissist? You know, the sort of questions we all have.

This piece from earlier this year, attempts to answer some of those questions. There doesn't seem to be any mention of me, though. Strange.

But look, let's get back to Wikipedia before we get too bogged down in self-involvement. This is a quote from the second paragraph of the intro (of the really long, multi-section entry on Narcissism, that I didn't bother to read all the way to the bottom.) 

'Narcissism exists on a continuum that ranges from normal to abnormal personality expression. While many psychologists believe that a moderate degree of narcissism is normal and healthy in humans, there are also more extreme forms...'

I stopped quoting when it began to get less pithy and reassuring. Classic narcissist behaviour right there, yeah? Erm, not sure tbh. Either way, I'm going to make a self-diagnosis, right here and now. Ready? Here we go. I probably DO have narcissistic tendencies but I'm calling them a healthy amount. I definitely put myself first when I have the option to do so. And I play the long game. I knew I was far too selfish/selfing* to procreate, so I didn't. I don't like being told what to do, I work much better when I'm left alone to get on with it, and working in a team with its expectations of collaboration and ideas-sharing drives me mad. The final evidence? For years now, I've been spewing out a weekly blog, filled with nothing but my own thoughts.**  Self-centred much? Very possibly. 

But... but... BUT... there are some counter-arguments. I didn't buy any of the baubles with my name on, I give people lifts when they ask me, I baby-sit my nieces and nephews if I'm free, and I throw spare money towards charity when I can. Perhaps it's not as cut and dried as I thought. Maybe hearing a buzzword getting thrown about the media isn't the best way to diagnose a personality disorder. Maybe my friends and family enjoy celebrating my name in bauble form and it's no reflection on me. Or maybe I've overthought this whole thing and sharing it with you now will help you realise you're not alone when you have your own random, spiralling thoughts. 

Whatever judgement call you've made on this; whatever diagnosis you've mentally given me, let's not dwell. We can only do our best with the personality traits we were given and that society has further developed since birth. It's time to move on. I'll be back on Monday with the next Weekly Update, and we'll talk no more of this. Unless you want to. I'm trying not to make it all about me, you see.

Have a lovely week, folks.

*A friend introduced me to this term years ago. Means the same as selfish but without the negative connotations. I like it.

** YOU'RE WELCOME

Metaphoric Gymnastics...

Ready for an opinion that'll split readers down the middle? Snow is brilliant! Yeah, I said it! There's nothing better than going for a walk when the air's biting cold, you're bundled up in layers, and there's a crisp white layer on the ground. Amiright? OK, OK, let's two-side this thing. I can also see that there's nothing worse than going for a walk when underfoot is sludgy, slippery, and treacherous. It's a fine line to balance.

 

The first flakes 
of the season.
Round my way
anyway.

Happily, last week, the first set of circs came about. I had two days of the loveliest winter walks. There's something inherently marvellous about returning, rosy cheeked and breathy, ready for my first cup of tea of the day, and warming up in a hot shower. Yeah, yeah, privilege much? I know. I do honestly know that. To keep me in check, there were more days last week where my second wintery weather description led the way. Slippy, sludgy, icy ground seemed the norm. It wasn't much fun and I ended up ditching a couple of my scheduled walks for safety. There's no real problem with that - I can do what I want, right! Except it meant there were instances last week where I was pacing the kitchen come evening in order to get my steps in. (Or, lets be honest, shaking my phone vigorously in front of the telly, trying to mimic an energetic stroll.) Skipping walks has consequences, kids. Regardless of my own personal issues, if you had snow last week, I hope it was top safe fun and you had somewhere to warm up. 

Chapter 7's plan
redacted for 
national security.
(Lolz)

Writing News

Do you remember my problem? I'd got sidetracked by a cold and felt generally rubbish, so had avoided starting my next chapter. And then there was the fact it was the biggest chapter in my planning file. A massive concertinaed piece of paper, making me feel overwhelmed and inferior before I even began. But like all scary, overwhelming things, I looked it in the eye and said NO. I RESFUSE TO BE COWED. (I didn't actually say that. But I defo thought it.) 

I forced myself to sit down and start at the beginning. And you know what? I was pleasantly surprised. Turns out, the reason the plan was so long was because after the first few bullet points, I'd pretty much typed up the chapter in full. Honest to God! Much of it could be copied and pasted straight into the manuscript. It seems Past Nicky had done Present Nicky an absolute solid.

Wolf Hall. Every scene
is like a painting. As is every
paragraph in the book.

Culture

Isn't Wolf Hall brilliant? Yep, I'm up to date and on the ball. I've finally caught up with the 2015 BBC series about Thomas Cromwell and his shenanigans in Henry VIII's court. Just the nine years late. No biggie. The thing is, I'd read the first of Hilary Mantel's books but forgotten everything, so the TV series has been a reminder of the intricate beauty of her writing. The new series that's just out, is dropping each week. I'll be diving in asap. 

Love me some self-deprecation.

In very different Culture News, I fell down a Hugh Grant rabbit hole last week. Fun! I was bored on YouTube and found loads of vids - and trust me, I watched them all - where he talks through his previous roles. He's reassuringly awkward and self-deprecating about lots of them and I had fun remembering his films. But better still, when I left YouTube and looked at the TV listings, Four Weddings and a Funeral was on BBC1. Spooky! Despite it being ostensibly about posh white people being posh and white, it holds up fairly well.

About 25% of my
picky tea. Reader, there
were leftovers.

Food and Drink

It's another fine line to balance. Is the last week of November, too soon for Christmas party food? I've decided, no. As I *may* have mentioned in previous years, my Christmas gets crazy stressy and busy from the middle of December. November is my chance to feel the full glow of the festive season without the headaches. On Saturday I had a festive picky tea after putting up my tree and I loved it. I was soundtracked by Christmas songs, jollied along with fizzy wine, and entertained by the next Christmas film on my list. (Netflix's Single All the Way. It was the best.

Out and About

Apart from the snow, I've been dodging rain showers, and Storm Bert all week. Regardless, I made it to Wednesday brunch, and Thursday Costa so not all bad. I'm also at the stage of Christmas shopping where most days see me having to retrieve parcels from a local lockbox. Is that a social life? Hmmm. It's another fine line isn't it.

Simone Biles with her 
excellently balanced,
dramatic interpretation
of my week. 

Lots of balancing this week - gloomy expectations prior to writing and then happy surprises after; the beauty of new snow versus the dreary grey of old; and when is the correct time to start Christmas festivities? Like the most agile of gymnasts, we have to walk a fine line through every decision. I hope your own balancing acts are going as well as can be expected. Heads up, don't look down, and confidently arm stretch at the end. Sorted.

Have a lovely week, folks.

Root Out the Nuggets...

The fairy lights along the bannister are on! Sadly, the 2024 switch-on wasn't soundtracked by excited crowds counting down in unison. Nope, it was a much more sedate affair. I simply decided that if the political landscape of the West was now this precarious and scary, I needed nice things in my life. The switch got flicked and the warm white glow of a hundred little lights lit up my home. 

Nuggets of joy?

So what else have I been doing to stop my brain working out the logical end game of, for example, putting up a known anti-vaxxer to be in charge of US health? Well, there's been lots of mashed potato. That, along with thick gravy, is cheering me up. I've begun working through the official Christmas Watch List - a list of every Christmas film or TV episode that I rate, starting with the basics and peaking on Christmas Eve. (The list starts with the Midsomer Murders episode, Ghosts of Christmas Past, and ends with It's A Wonderful Life.) Besides that? What else have I been doing to keep spirits up? Ngl, it's been a tricky one. What with everything else, I've got a stinking cold, and two lovely people I know have just died. It's not been a terribly upbeat time. All the more reason, then, to keep searching out the nuggets of joy. Mashed potato, fairy lights, or Christmas films will do for now. There'll be more to come. Part resistance, part celebrating each new day - finding the joy is the least we can, and must, do.

Me, played by Jennifer Aniston, 
dealing with my sniffles.

Writing News

Argghh. The dog ate my homework! I left it on the bus! Or, to be less metaphoric and/or cliched, my snotty, sniffly cold meant I couldn't be arsed getting into the next chapter. This is bad! I know! I even missed my writing group, which doesn't often happen. This week I have to knuckle down and push through. Chapter Seven, with it's massive pull out section in my planning notebook, will be started this week. Defo.

Good Bye Lenin!

Culture News

Besides the aforementioned Christmas films, I've been hammering the German cinema stuff. All since my Berlin holiday. So, it was a rewatch of The Lives of Others - I talked about this last week when I visited places where it was filmed. I also found Good Bye Lenin! It used to be on Prime but now seems only available on YouTube. No matter, it was great, and provided plenty of times where I could say, 'Oh, look, it's... (insert Berlin street name/square here).' Finally, in non-Christmas and non-German film news, the revamped and modernised series of The Day of the Jackal is on Sky and it's BOSS. Grippy and slick, but with no hugely stressful real-life peril to deal with. It's a hard recommend from me.

Food and Drink

Along with the mash, I made dark beer onion gravy from a recipe online. I'm not sure it worked - a bit too bitter in the end - but it SMELT amazing. As well as that, I made pretzels. Get me! It was another online recipe but this one worked. 

For the rest of the week, I had soup for tea so I could have a legitimate daily pretzel accompaniment. But now? Now I've got to get back to a semblance of balance and health. At least before silly season kicks in. More veg, less mad carbs, and back to mixing in my non-alcoholic with my alcoholic drinks. It's a plan!

Out and About

In spite of my sniffles, on Saturday I had a day in London. My aunt's just relocated so this was the first visit we did as a family. It's a bit of a trek, I'll give you that, but near enough to a tube station to navigate to easily enough. It's always exciting when someone you know moves to a new area -  hello Ladbroke Grove! It certainly keeps things lively.

So, how are we going to tackle the week ahead? What nuggets of joy are we going to seek out? It's good to wallow and mend for a short time - whether it's from having a cold or feeling utterly fed up at the state of things. But the thing about a short time is that it's over pretty quickly. And then? Then we defiantly and definitely crack on. 

Have a lovely week, folks.

History Lessons on Holiday...

In hindsight, I'm not sure what would have been better. To have been watching the US election in the middle of a mundane week at home, or have it happen slap bang in the middle of my Berlin holiday - taking out a chunk of tourist time but with enough distractions in the aftermath to keep me busy. I pulled my customary all-nighter regardless. Pre-trip, I'd already planned to write off any activity the following day. Either because I'd be still watching the states declare their votes or because I'd be sleepily celebrating a Democrat win. That was my plan. And then the absolute opposite happened. 

Wednesday was written off because I was sleepily depressed. Tired and sad, scared and angry, and utterly shocked. Perhaps in months or years to come we'll learn - like we did with the 2016 election - there was a vast array of interference. Remember? That was some of what Trump was convicted of earlier this year. But that fact, among other horrendous facts about him and his presidential plans, did not deter lots of people voting for him. Vox Pops of white men* popped up on my screen at various intervals. They kept saying they voted for him because of the economy. Great. That'll help the women who are denied critical health care as they bleed out, immigrants being threatened with deportations, and LGBTQIA+ folks who are filled with fear about their very right to live. But the economy? Oh right. Good work. No, really. 

Normal(ish) service for my holiday, resumed on Thursday when I stopped hibernating and tried to crack on. I got the U-Bahn to the East Side Gallery. It has a section of preserved Berlin Wall, covered in murals by artists from all over the world. The myriad art pieces depict freedom, revolution, and rising from tyranny after the darkest periods in history. It couldn't have been more on the nose if it tried. 

Writing News 
I've had a week off writing and it's been useful. When I'm at home, even if I'm not physically typing words onto the current draft, I'm never NOT thinking about my current work in progress. Being elsewhere for a week, has provided my first empty-brain moment since August. But there is writing news that's useful to impart. Your US writers are scared. If you like reading books - particularly YA books that include LGBTQIA+ characters, depict experiences of racial discrimination, or push the boundaries of a 'traditional' mindset even a smidge - now might be a good idea to buy a paper copy. Keeping paper copies of banned books is how they survive for future generations. Just a thought.

 

The Memorial to the
Murdered Jews of Europe.

Culture 
Let's get back to Berlin and its charms. It really is a culture-rich city and I don't think I've been to so many museums in a week before. Special shout out to the Stasi museum. It's shown in the film, The Lives of Others and to be there in the flesh was chilling. The Holocaust memorial was also very affecting. Small columns of dark grey stone fill a large section of the pavement. As you walk between them towards the middle, the ground gradually slopes, and before you know it, you're surrounded by towering columns that block out all surroundings. No matter which way you turn, you're enveloped, and for a longer-than-is-comfortable time, it feels like you'll never see light again. As I said, very affecting. 

The scale was massive.
If I were  standing next
to this art work I'd come
about halfway up the wall.

And then there was an art exhibit by the artist, Yadegar Asisi. It's a 360 degree panorama depicting a view of East Berlin from the west side of the wall. Its scale was breathtaking and no picture I could take would ever take would do it justice. 

The LOVELIEST wine

Food and Drink 
There's a lot of meat. That's my impression of Berlin, and, as you know, I'm a pescatarian almost all the time. The thing is, the Bavarian beer hall restaurants were such a vibe, I ate there anyway. And even though I was a bit limited in what I could choose, I didn't care. The atmosphere was boss. What I could rely on, food wise, was my daily massive pretzel. I now know that a massive daily pretzel is enough to cover breakkie and lunch, and keep me fuelled for an active day of sightseeing. Who knew? In other, less German specific food and drink news, I LOVED the version of Sauvignon Blanc that my hotel bar stocked. 

A bit of Berlin
train action

Out and About
The first two days away, I walked everywhere. That meant excessively achy legs and losing the will to live/walk by about 5pm. On day three I worked out how to use the U-Bahn, and the world - well Berlin - was my oyster. It's now been added to my other underground train experiences (London, Paris, Barcelona, Oslo, and New York) and once again makes me wish we had similar where I live. And yes, I know Liverpool has a tiny underground system, but what I really want to do, is be able to get a train within a five minute walk from my house and have the option to get ALL OVER THE PLACE, all with the tap of a card. Sadly my small, Merseyside village has yet to build such a metro system for me. 

So on we go. I'm back home, and at some point I'm going to have to engage with the news again. For example, the German government collapsed while I was there, but it was post-election so I barely noticed. I'm sure my news-junkie status will return at some point. Meanwhile, kind people online are being extraordinarily resilient in suggestions on how to support progressive politics from afar. Buy the art, make the art, support friends and strangers whose lives are threatened, and keep the joy turned up to eleven. It's a plan, it's a start, and that's better than than nothing right now. 

Have a lovely week, folks 

*Not all white men, not all men, not all white people, etc etc. Insert a caveat against generalisations here. I'm simply anecdotally reporting what CNN showed me throughtout Tuesday night. It's also fair to say that the post-election data shows a significant number of white women voted Republican too. 

Ich bin ein Berliner...

Greetings from Berlin! 

I've finally made it to the capital city of the only other country whose language I've attempted to learn. Have I spoken any German since I've been here? Hardly any! At the time of writing, I've been here a couple of days. It's marvellous! And even though I'm doing the horrendous Brit abroad routine and hoping everyone else speaks English, my three years of Duolingo have given me a good grasp of signs, menus, and how to ask where the nearest bibliothek is, should the need arise. As I continue to do my utmost at having an empty-headed week regarding the current book, I've been busy with the joy of discovering a new place. Utter larks! 

Writing News
How's this for a mad coincidence? If you saw my blatherings on social media last week, you'll have seen me explain how I was determined to complete Chapter Six (of the first draft of the next Leeza McAuliffe book) before I left for my trip. And I did! Hurrah and huzzah! Chapter Six was NAILED. At that point in the story, Leeza and her school friends are about to leave for a week's holiday. And where are they about to visit? Berlin of course! Look, I KNEW that's where the story was going. I made it up and put it in my planning file, months ago. I also (vaguely) thought how useful it was that I was also going to the same place this year. But the fact I'm exactly at the point where Leeza visits Berlin when I myself am visiting Berlin, has blown my mind. Just me? Fair enough. 

The wall!

Culture
My usual idea of 'fun things to do on holiday' is simple. Go somewhere interesting. Read a load of books in the day, and eat and drink in the evening. I like restaurants and bars, and cosy places to sit with a novel. But this time? I arrived with a comprehensive list of the museums and attractions I want to visit. There's nine in total. I've never planned a holiday like that before. So far I've been to Checkpoint Charlie and the DDR museum. It's all rather educational but in the best way. Meanwhile, the Kindle book that's filling the downtime gaps, is - perhaps rather predictably after I raved about the TV show - Jilly Cooper's Rivals. I've read it before and have just watched the show, but I'm still getting loads more depth to the frolics on the page. Hard recommend.

German Me is no
 stranger to a pretzel.

Food and Drink

As I said above, the focus of this trip is different from my usual vibe. It's been snacks on the go so far, rather than full on meals. Pretzels, sandwiches, and a lot of cake. Who am I to argue? The downside of being away (for me - big caveat!) is I genuinely miss cooking. The upside is, a few days break from creative culinary pressures, means I'll be back all the stronger next time. 

I'll be there before
my break is over

Out and About 

I mean, what can I tell you. It's all about Berlin! Preserved bits of wall, memorials, and yesterday I walked past Trabiworld - worth a visit I'm sure. But prior to leaving, I did potter round Liverpool city Centre for their annual River of Light festival. Town was booming with halftime families but it was all good fun. 

Now all that is well and good, but the main focus for the week isn't Germany but the US. I'll be crossing everything that is possible to cross for a Democratic win tomorrow night - or whatever day the election is finally called. The alternative is unthinkable. It wasn't lost on me, as I read info boards about the rise of the Nazis yesterday, how easy it is for history to start to repeat itself. But there's still hope. Massive turnouts for early voting, huge numbers of newly registered women, and many Republicans sickened at the degradation of their party, have got to be worth something. Surely? I'll be closely watching, along with the rest of the world, and willing this particularly grim chapter be over.

Have a lovely week, folks.